If I look at you as a clown now, and no longer have any respect for you, that means that the right now me judges your past treatment of me as unfair and unjust. But we're talking about the past me. The one that is literally and totally dead. The past is an illusion. It might not even be what one thinks it is.
The now me regards you as utterly average, but at the same time, loud and opinionated. I've encountered lots and lots and lots of such people. Utterly average.
What the now you thinks of the now me is not something worth worrying about.